MySmarnika

I was reading a book, the courage to be disliked, and one of the thing I could totally relate to it was life is not being about reaching the summit of the mountain.

I have taken lot of stress in my life for changing the system, changing the way the business is done, the customer and my team thinks. I should have focussed on the execution and enjoyed the process which I am able to do relatively better, hence have less worry.

After class X I had ambitious dreams and didn’t want to settle for less, though I did for certain aspect in life. I have realised having clarity in life or at an instant is one of the best superpower one can posses. Most of the time I have followed others.

Clarity can only come after exploring things, experimenting, meeting right people – understand what they do and their journey, run small business experiments- figure out what you liked and enjoyed the most. Similarly in a dining buffet you may want to find what would you eat -may be try out cuisines and eat what you like.

I think I was a carefree and happy soul till grade X, never thought about goals or things I wish to achieve. Once it came I have been mostly living in the future.

I have evolved in a better way and is not constantly looking for validation. But a thought struck of building a aesthetic physique- this I am probably doing for validation. I want to look good in front of others. Having said that, even if other people are not present I would not like to have a belly and lose muscles.

What would I do for a specific task if the people are not there? Would I be doing the same thing? This may help me inn identifying the things if I am doing it for validation.

What I learned so far that help me write this blog is:

• Living in the moments. I want to be carefree soul again and be the X grader again
• Being normal is ok. I have yet to figure out the take on managing goals and being normal and being carefree.